Mad World

All around me are familiar faces Worn out places Worn out faces Bright and early for the daily races Going no where Going no where And the tears are filling up their glasses No expression No expression And in my head I want to drown my sorrow No tomorrow No tomorrow And I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had And I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take When people run in circles It's a very, very... mad world... mad world... Children waiting for the day they feel good Happy birthday Happy birthday Made to feel the way that every child should Sit and listen Sit and listen Went to school and I was very nervous No one knew me No one knew me Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson Look right through me Look right through me And I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had And I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take When people run in circles It's a very, very... mad world... mad world...

dream

I just dreamt that I got married in a church. Weird.

Sherlock Holmes

(from wikipedia) Though initially their relationship was little more than one between casual acquaintances sharing a set of rooms, Holmes and Watson ultimately become the best of friends, almost like brothers. By the time they shared "The Adventure of the Three Garridebs", Holmes was so attached to his friend that he nearly lost his composure at the thought that Watson had been fatally shot. Watson wrote, "It was worth a wound—it was worth many wounds—to know the depth of loyalty and love which lay behind that cold mask. The clear, hard eyes were dimmed for a moment, and the firm lips were shaking. For the one and only time I caught a glimpse of a great heart as well as of a great brain. All my years of humble but single-minded service culminated in that moment of revelation."

For the ninety-nine bad things that happen to me, hopefully once I will be lucky.

Today is that lucky day. I really can't believe I managed to do an external calibration at one go in 2 hours without having to redo the analysis, without having to rerun the calibration, without having to keep aligning the graphite tube.

But after my calculations, my joy soon turned into dread. This is my third time comparing external calibration and standard addition using chicken muscle, and my SA results are consistently half that of EC. Mind, SA is supposed to be more accurate.

My THIRD time. Could it really be that I did something wrong? Something that my mentor wasn't able to identify and thus resort to asking me to repeat and repeat?

Well, I consulted another graduate student, and it turned out that I had made a mistake in my calculations. See, I added 2g of sample solution to 2g of acid and measured the absorbance, so the actual concentration has actually been diluted by half. I can't believe he made me repeat the experiments for nothing!

But oh well... at least there is no major problem...

my progress report

Only one word to describe it. Disastrous. It went about as bad as it could have gone. My slides moved according to my rehearsed timing, out of control. Lyl looked like she was sleeping, which peeved me a lot, but then she wasn't. She's like the crocodile pretending to be a log, waiting to pounce and catch the deer unaware. The q and a was wayyyy too horrible. Aww I dont want to think about it. I had spent such a long time preparing the slides for blank correction, mass fractionation correction and whatever shit, but what did they ask? How does hydrogen peroxide digest meat? (I should have thought if that, really... Coming from an organic chemist)how does feed affect the sr analysis? To be fair, their questions weren't that unexpected... It's just... a very very sad day for me and coupled with the gloomy weather I just want to waste away on my bed, but no I'm stuck in sch in the horrible formal wear bcos I have lecture later at 6. Wth

pain versus more pain

I've got a gaping ulcer in my mouth but there's nothing I can do about it cos every time I try to apply oral paste on it there will be blood and I'm damn worried my blood clot dislodging. This is driving me nuts.

I went to extract two wisdom teeth on the right today. The needle for the anaesthesia is really painful. The dentist was right. You can't feel the pain, but you can feel the pressure exerted on your teeth, which is almost as bad. The surgeon pressed so hard on my teeth I thought I might just dislocate my jaw. Then I felt her pulling and she promptly announced that the top tooth was extracted. The bottom tooth was trickier since it's embedded in the gum. I supposed she cut a slit in my gum first; I couldn't feel that. What I could feel was her sawing my tooth the way a carpenter saws a log. And the sound was just right at my ear.

But alas it was over. I stood up to leave, but felt a bit giddy, and the kind nurse guided me back to rest a while longer.

I began to think that I should have opted for general anaesthesia. But I guess the pain after the anaesthesia fades will be the same. It was disgusting swallowing mouthfuls of blood and walking home with blood-stained lips. And now it's no longer so numb but it's really painful.

Argh it hurts so much...