Love this song... love Hye Sun's singing. Sad and beautiful...


Go Gu Jun Pyo & Geum Jan Di!!!

BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS

Episode 18

Jun Pyo finds out that Jan Di will never be able to swim again because of him. The guilt... Hasn't he suffered enough?

看着他抱着Jan Di 送的粉红猫入睡。。。但他怎么连在梦里也有不安的表情？真让人心疼。Chief Jung tuckes him in and leaves a folder containing Jan Di's photos under a pillow, allowing Jun Pyo to move in next to her.

Perhaps he cares about Jun Pyo more than Jun Pyo's own mother.

2008-08-06模范棒棒堂 棒棒堂友情交誼廳II

haha this is funny... awkward moments when you try to strike a conversation w/o too many 冷场

went for the yrp interview on wednesday. it's a kind of attachment programme. I knew I'd screwed up the interview cos my mind was kind of blank and I fumbled with my answers. Anyway I walked out of the room just wanting to roar and scream. Gross. Received the rejection email the following day.

I don't feel disappointed, not too much anyway, cos I'm not really interested in research. I just hate interviews. Gawd...

I'm rotting once again at home, just like I'd done last year. I'm not complaining...

By the way Javan mynas have been attempting to enter my house via the kitchen windows. My mother has resorted to covering the windows with a piece of cloth. I had found it mildly amusing until just now, when I went to the kitchen to get a drink and I was talking to my mom when I saw this myna perching on the window sill. OMG! I let out a very shrill scream that scared my mother and the bird away.

Well, I've learnt from my Natural Heritage class that mynas (and crows, and long-tailed macaques for that matter, those found at BTNR) are very smart creatures, and I guess they have associated my kitchen with food, cos we always leave leftover food in a bin uncovered. The thing is I live on the 15th storey, and the kitchen window is really small, only 2 panels long. I wonder how they found the place... and more importantly how to get rid of them.

By the way do you know it is legal to kill mynas? And crows and pigeons? (haha I bet people are thinking about how cruel I am. But these animals are aliens AND pests.)

おくりびと （送行者：礼仪师的乐章）

死，可能是一道门。逝去并不是终结，而是超越，走向下一程。正如门一样。


This movie is really nice. The soundtrack is good and I cried a lot during the movie. The front part was a bit boring, but once it got into the main theme I just couldn't stop watching. 哭得眼泪直流，滴到衣服都湿了。。。礼仪师真是一份伟大的工作。。。 Strongly recommend this movie to everyone.
Watch it here:
Part 1
Part 2

The OST:

[OST] Joe Hisaishi - Okuribito Original Soundtrack [2008.09.10]

feeling very depressed now... must watch some 棒棒堂 and have a good laugh before i can get to sleep....

Suicide

'Although I have some faith in my abilities, companies can give a job to someone 15 years younger than me who's probably not as good as me, but not much worse and whom they can pay half the salary, and who will work harder than I would. At my age, I should be high up the tree, hanging on grimly and voiding my bowels on those below.

I consider suicide. I haven't thought of it for a while.

Suicide's appeal is that it's easy. Going through with it isn't. That requires some drive. Which of the following is easiest? Filling in a 10-page application form which contains several questions you don't even understand? Moving house? Getting a qualification in computing or engineering? Trawling through the lonely hearts columns hoping for someone with decent conversation? Building up a business in executive toys on your own by working 12-hour days for 6 years?

Or swallowing some pills?

Suicide panders to our laziness. And laziness always wins. Sooner or later. That's the only law.

Why not kill yourself when you are in a good mood? Why go out miserable? Why not quit when you are ahead? The notion of checking out in a good mood in a good hotel suddenly appeals to me.

The main reason I ponder suicide a lot is because I know I won't. I have a problem of being a coward and a weakling.'

~~ Tibor Fischer, How to be God, p18-19

(taken from http://iceman-in-iceworld.blogspot.com. It's amazing how many books this guy has read!)

Found this written on a scrap piece of paper:

不是因为是真的才相信
是因为 相信了才变真的

Written by me, but I can't remember where I'd copied it from...

By the way, organic chem paper was yesterday. (That sounds wrong. Exam does not equal yesterday. I should write, "I had my organic chem paper yesterday". hahaha) It wasn't too bad, I guess. I mean, at least I could sort of get to the final product. Hee...anyway I'm just glad that it's over...at least for the next few months. Cos I heard from my friends that in nus chem u can't escape from organic chem; it's the main research area of the chem department. Sigh.

My next paper is Inorganic chem on Thursday. And I've been totally slacking yesterday and today. Watched ghost whisperer, read i-weekly, and of course watched youtube. Recently I've been watching many 棒棒堂videos, and honestly, I can't get enough of them. Hahaha... I didn't think much of them in the past, but grew to like them as I watched more of their shows. They're really funny. I watched their videos when I was super sleepy from studying organic chem, and I laughed so hard my stomach hurt and I became very energetic and high...at 4am..hahaha. As you can see I haven't been working hard and this really worries me. Exam le, TKY!!! Where has your 往日的用功 and 勤奋 gone? Stop playing!!! But it's so hard when the laptop is right in front of you on your desk, and between the computer and a stack of notes of course you will go for the former, right? Sigh, maybe I should just hide my laptop.

Nah... that's impossible. Bleh.

《乒乓圆》今天大结局！猜猜是何胜武还是贺家军会赢？不知道啊，网上多数的人都是支持阿武。。。哈哈其实我也是。阿武这个角色确实比较讨好。希望阿武能和姿宜在一起，因为小芬实在不值得阿武的爱。她这个大花痴，整天摆着一副“阿武你快回去洗衣店-别再闹了-你怎么可能会打乒乓”的脸，刘云在公开赛败给阿武后竟然因为家军的几句话而怀疑从小和她一起长大的阿武，真是太 太 太 可恶了！！！相反的，姿宜一直都相信阿武，并鼓励他追求梦想。(it's tough typing in chinese...) In fact I feel that it's Ziyi who propelled Ah Wu to stop playing against the wall and play with a human opponent. It's only after her 责备 that he 大彻大悟...