Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Job!!!

Alas, I finally received a call from JustEducation just now, like what, more than a month after I'd gone for the interview. I'll be reporting for work tomorrow. Hope all goes well.
The sad thing is that I'll be missing LOTS of TV. cos I'll end work quite late. I'm not really sure, but i think it's roughly like 1pm to 10pm. *cry* Prison break, Supernatural, and weekend movies. Sigh.
31st of January... Daoming Si's birthday!!! =)
I think I'll lay off Fearless for a while..I've been reading them continuously and you know, that's unhealthy because I'll get too immensed in that world. Anyway I think those books are a bit dark, what with Gaia being so lonely and people she loved getting hurt or even killed, conspiracies and plots all around her, no one to trust and stuff..Ah I still can't get over the fact that Jake was killed. I just read Fearless special edition: Gaia abducted. In this book Jake just arrived in New York and she thought he was this arrogant new boy with a gigantic ego. She was abducted to this mental institution in Florida and Jake rescued her. Jake rescued her. And then in the end Jakew would die to save her. so sad.
I'm reading harry Potter #2..The first few books are lighter and I really had a good time laughing at all those funny bits. =)

Friday, January 26, 2007

saturday blues

I just watched the "true light" mv on youtube. Then it struck me that tomorrow will be the start of Saturdays without D.N.Angel. Sigh. So sad. It is a really really nice anime. i hope someone will post it back on youtube.
Watching the ella-wuzun show now. :P got connection prob, cannot load properly...

You get treated the way you let yourself get treated

A quote from Fearless #21: Blind by Ed Fargo. Which kind of makes sense.

Arghh..I'm still jobless!!!

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

gone

I'm done with the last book in the Fearless series. And as always(whenever I finish a book or movie) I feel this sense of loss. But all things have to come to an end.
I'm so sad that Jake died. Died to protect Gaia. Why did he have to die? He had such a bright future ahead of him.
And that parting scene with Ed was almost too much to bear. Gaia left New York for good. I suppose she had to, to start all over again. There were simply too many painful memories there. So many people died there because of her. But still... I hate farewells(which are inevitable, I guess).
sigh*

p.s.what an appropriate title.

Monday, January 22, 2007

True Light

Kanashii hodo hikari dashita,
Shiroi yami kiri saku tsubasa ni nare

Tsumetai taiyou ni terasareteta,
Kai narasareta jiyuu ga atta,
Kagami ni utsutta kiseki no yoru,
Masuku o hazushi hajimeta my soul,

Shiroku somaru yami tsuki nukete,
Atarshii jidai o kizami tsuzukero,
Toki hanashita kokoro no mama ni,
Hateshinaku tsuzuiteku byakuya o tobe.

(last sentence) Letting your heart be set free Fly upon the endless true light

Free will

Free will. It's an interesting concept. Human beings choose to believe that they have some level of agency over the course of their lives, some measure of control. But that's all it is-a measure. An ineffectual effort to assert power over circumstances far beyond any of our reach. And it's true of us all, no matter where we stand on the social spectrum. While a child trapped, without resource or advantage, in the inner city is likely to know a lifetime of disenfranchisement, the grandest dame of the Junior League is equally a product of social expectations, of the conventions of her peers, of he culture of consumerism. It's a paradox-those with the most capital are often those least free, burdened as they are by a need to acquire, to compete. . . to spend. This fierce drive toward commercialism shifts the power dynamic away from them.

(Adapted from Fearless #35: Exposed)

Kind of chim..Don't really understand. :P

Choices

Because that's the way it goes. That's the nature of the beast. When someone says to you, "Oh, whichever, I don't mind," chances are that on some level, they're flat-out lying. Okay, sure, maybe the truth of the matter is that ultimately they'd be happy to eat sushi instead of Chinese or vice versa. Maybe it's not a life-or-death decision. But they do have a proclivity, however slight. There was a slight momentary flash of, "Gee, an egg roll might be nice," before they realised that some crab tempura could do just the same.
That's the thing about choices: they force a person to choose.
When you're given more than one option, one of the two will seem more appealing. Maybe it's not a value thing, maybe its not really a judgment, but you're going to lean in one direction or the other. At least for a moment.

(Adapted from Fearless #35: Exposed)

《龙凤斗》-一段偷不走的爱


昨晚在电视上看了这部电影。这好像是刘德华-郑秀文-杜琪峰这个组合继《孤男寡女》与《瘦身男女》的最后一次合作。觉得刘德华和郑秀文真的好登对啊!
我觉得这部戏的前半部是非常轻松搞笑的,两人齐力合作偷红酒,一枚戒指刚偷来又被对方偷去。看下去就开始觉得有点不太对劲儿,有种感觉盗生(刘德华饰)好像真的有病(是不是急性血癌就不知道了。。应该不是吧,两年了都还没死)。
结局非常凄美。之前盗太(郑秀文饰)问盗生为什么两年前要和她离婚(原本的理由是分赃分不齐),盗生说如果回答这个问题她就不能问项链的事,盗太选择了。。项链。到了戏末,盗太与盗生通电话,听到有“洋妞”的声音而问他它到底在哪里。盗生说如果她问了这个问题就不能问项链的事。她迟疑,问道:“你在哪里?” “你的问题应该是,项链在哪里吧?” “你在哪里?”盗生笑而不语,挂电。
我想盗生在两年前发现自己有病,便以分赃不齐为理由与他深爱的女人离婚。偷项链也是不想她与别的男人结婚吧。盗生临死前把所有的财产留给盗太,并委托Mrs Allen在Steve二度向盗太求婚时,帮他再偷一次,制造假象让盗太以为盗生还活着。结尾时,交错着盗太欣喜地开着车(好像是在他们曾一起去过的意大利)和盗生葬礼的画面。看了心好痛,好酸。

唉。为什么不要来个happily ever after的结局呢?看了好难过。自己都快死了,心里想的都还是怎样让心爱的人幸福。即使已经不可能在一起,也还是千方百计想给她一个希望。盗生的爱好伟大啊!

Friday, January 19, 2007

IQ test

I went to http://www.testcafe.com/iqtest/ and took the iq test. It's very scary 'cos i think it's sort of timed. You can't take too long to answer or they will deduct points so I'm was really nervous. I hate those things that are timed.
"Congratulations!Your general IQ score is 141. "
I used to get 120. But that's another website (tickle actually). ok let me take another one so i can compare.
Ah, forget it. I'm too lazy. :P

colour quiz



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What Greek God Are You

Aphrodite
Gods! You scored 64!
You are most like the Goddess Aphrodite! Aphrodite is the goddess of love, beauty, fertility and desire. Although she was married she had many affairs with both other gods and men - most famously with Ares. Her husband Hephaestus caught them in a net he had made and paraded them in front of the other gods. Aphrodite is mean, vain and jealous, and most often depicted with a mirror.
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The Voice Within

You know, I never liked this song when my sister was playing the "Stripped" CD. But some songs feel differently when you listen to them under different circumstances. I suppose that's why OSTs are so popular. Anyway this song was played towards the end of season 1, episode 20: The Vanishing of my favourite show "Ghost Whisperer" (guaranteed tear-jerker. For me, anyway. Especially the part where the ghosts are crossing over). It was really really sad.

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl it's alright
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

Chorus:
When there's no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength that will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Young girl don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you're gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you look outside look inside to your soul

Chorus

Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
(Be strong)
You'll break it
(Hold on)
You'll make it
Just don't forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can't do
No one can stop you, you know that i'm talking to you

Chorus

Young girl don't cry i'll be right here when your world starts to fall

christina aguilera's lyrics are great. very meaningful.

outing with xiaowei

Xiaowei invited(ok that sounds a bit too formal..asked me out then) me to JE to visit the pasar malam. But oh man, it was so disappointing. I dunno if it hadn't started or it was ending, but there were very few stalls. And there was only one stall selling toys and stickers which are what we were there for. So in the end we forsake that place and headed for my favourite place -the library. As soon as we reached level 4 I headed for the CAB section of fiction. Arrghhhh..all gone. No Mediator books in sight. I checked the comp and they were all on loan (how could xiaowei say they are not nice and no one reads them?). =(
So next I went for PAS and much to my delight found a whole shelf of Fearless books!!! Plus I found #35&36! Yeah!!! =)
And then we went to the basement (that's where the children section is). Luckily for us I think all the kids were at school and it was pretty deserted. I found HP-chamber of secrets and prisoner of azkaban..so I plan to go on a Harry Potter marathon and finish the entire series again. haha...
Currently I'm reading "Teen Idol" by Meg Cabot(again??). It's a nice book. I think I like her writing. She has a nice sense of humour. I'm not sure I'd like Princess Diaries, though. I've never read a single book in that series, but the very concept sounds pretty boring. And dumb. And too girlish, if you know what I mean.
Sigh I know I'm too old to be reading this kind of teen fiction which are all about high school crushes but I really don't enjoy the adult books. They totally turn me off. They look so thick and intimidating and boring. Whatever.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

pss part 2

darren is in. sigh i sort of know he'll get in, cos he seems more popular and stuff. but i was hoping kern bai would win. i think he's a better singer. ya i know he uses a LOT of nasal voice but his rendition of 寂寞公路 was really great.
so now it's down to diya and darren then... =P

project superstar

sigh. sigh. sigh.
carrie is out. even though she got the highest score ever of 44.5. unfair.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

typing speed

just went to www.typingtest.com and my speed is 46wpm, 100% accuracy. =)

It's The End Of The Road

Heidi and Travis doing a contemporary



I watched the finals of the second season of So you think you can dance yesterday. There was no suspense at all, because I read from the internet that Benji was the winner. It's really hard to choose a winner out of the four finalists because to me all of them are simply superb. Really. And then Singapore is copying others again by dishing out The Dance Floor (even the name pales in comparison). I know this sounds really sceptical(and unpatriotic), but I suppose we can't expect too much from such a small pool of people.






My favourite couple is definitely Ivan and Allison. =)






Anyway, they often play this song when contestants leave the competition, so I went to look up the lyrics. It's quite meaningful. Here goes:


It's The End Of The Road by Matt Goss

Yesterday a clear horizon
Now the clouds are rollin' in it's disappeared
The one thing that i've always believed in
It's strange how right now it all seems so unclear


I consult my soul And it tells me that it knows
There's no doubt one day I'm gonna fly
Gotta stand up, dust myself off
Just for now It's the end of the road


When something ends Something begins,
But now it's just the end of the road
When someone loses someone wins
But now it's just the end of the road
Don't get to fix it if it doesn't break
But now it's just the end of the road
When you gotta leave It makes you wanna stay
I know it's the end of the road It's the end of the road

One line can change a story
So sometimes let the line just be unsaid
Pride only thinks about the glory
And just the right now And not the days ahead


I've held my breath Walked on shells hoped for the best
What the future holds I don't know
I've gotta stand up, dust myself off
Just for now It's the end of the road


When something ends Something begins,
But now it's just the end of the road
When someone loses someone wins
But now it's just the end of the road
Don't get to fix it if it doesn't break
But now it's just the end of the road
When you gotta leave It makes you wanna stay
I know it's the end of the road

I've been travelin' Get the dust right off the windshield
No one gets the road map to their life
'Cause life is so subjective
I'll take my pain and I wanna protect it
Never blinds me always reminds me
There's so much more to see At the end of the road


When something ends Something begins
Is this the end of the road?
When someone loses Someone wins
Is this the end of the road?
When something ends Something begins,
But now it's just the end of the road
When someone loses someone wins
But now it's just the end of the road
Don't get to fix it if it doesn't break
But now it's just the end of the road
When you gotta leave It makes you wanna stay
I know it's the end of the road

华语

很久没有用华语写作了。以前常听中学的班主任说到自己虽然还能说华语,但由于就没有练习写(因为在初级学院修母语并非强制性), 所以久而久之,要写一封信都难。我现在再写这段文字的时候就深深的体会到老师的意思.(不知道是不是因为要用汉语拼音来输入..) 天啊,我好像是在用英语想然后再翻译成中文..文法好像都错了。。读起来怪怪的。华文应该不能用那么多 “。。”吧?

非常喜欢阅读i周刊里的专栏, 觉得作者们的文笔好美,好像在读小说一样。 非常渴望自己也能像他们一样, 能写出一篇那么流畅且动人的文章, 读起来好浪漫!

"匆忙的人生看似获得了许多。 但在赶忙之中往往错过了最重要的一件事, 就是感受当下。 米兰昆德拉在《缓慢》一书中提到,缓慢的速度是为了要清楚的记忆,快速是为了要忘记。不无道理。

人生这一站只有一次的机会。错过了,再也没有下一班车。
因此,此刻就是永恒。"

Sunday, January 14, 2007

job

xiaowei called me just now to offer me a tuition assignment which i accepted. with trepidation.(i dunno if i used this word correctly.) very scary. i totally dunno what's supposed to happen because i have never given any tuition and neither have i been on the receiving end. sigh.
i'm such a nervous wreck, worrying 24/7. i'm so scared!! what should i do?
the first lesson starts this tuesday and i'm totally unprepared to teach chinese. the syllabus has undergone a huge revamp, thanks to moe.
ok, i'm going to go watch "the day after tomorrow" now. =P

Happy Birthday!!!


14th of January. Birthday of Takako Uehara of my favourite band SPEED. I'd like to wish her a very happy birthday and may she have a blasting singing carrier ahead. =)
How time flies. She (and Eriko) is already 24 years old. sigh..

change your stars












From peasant to knight; one man can change his stars


I just watched "a knight's tale" on channel 5.

It's very inspiring, how a son of a thatcher could fight his destiny and create his own future. But i think that just happens in movies. Not in real life. I mean, sure, you can modify your future, but change it? I'm not so sure. There are so many things in this world that are so totally out of our control. The perceptions of the society, the family we were born into, all the social stigma..We are so restricted.
What a depressing thought. Won't that make our efforts useless and meaningless?
That's why there are movies and TV shows like these that give us some comfort. That we should always have hope.
P.S. I just love anything that is medieval : kings, castles, knights... Wow.

Friday, January 12, 2007

Fearless #34: Fake

i was really irritated with Gaia while reading this book cos she's so weak and submissive to Skyler. she just allowed him to poison her mind and turn her against Jake. it was SO maddening.
But luckily in the end she lost her fear (somehow), cleared up her mind and (finally!) began to question Skyler's motives.
Looking forward to the next book...

Excerpts again...

(Skyler)It's always, ALWAYS better to be the person the hero answers to than the hero himself. After all, Caine had to answer to Master Kan. And considering that Tarzan and Superman would do anything their women told them to, didn't that mean Jane and Lois Lane were actually the more powerful ones?

And suddenly, for the first time in her life, Gaia began to understand the absurd mystery of tickling. It wasn't so much the actual sensation of fingers digging into one's ribs but the anticipation of it that people responded to. She was laughing in expectation.

(Gaia) "Take care!"
What nitwit starting using that phrase as a fond farewell? Take care? Take care of what? My teeth? (...) Why are they ordering me to take care of myself? If it's social politeness they're after, wouldn't it be nicer for them to offer to take care of me?
And my tendency, at least in the past, to shoo away the social butterflies? Well, that's just textbook defense strategy, isn't it? We loner misfits who act all tough are really just soggy marshmallows on the inside. We may snarl, "Get lost!" but what we're really saying is, "Love me, hold me, be my best friend."

(Skyler)Once when we were kids, Aunt Agatha took me, Chris, and Liz to her Evangel Temple. (...) And quite a few of them closed their eyes and lifted up their arms. Chris leaned over to me and said, "How come they have their hands up like that?' and I whispered, "Better reception."
Aunt Agatha sent us out to the car for disturbing God with our giggling.

fearless #32: Terror

so now Gaia can feel fear, and she's so cowardly i can't stand it.
not that i can blame her. others had their entire life to accustom to fear; she had it all dumped on her suddenly.

Quotes that Gaia found on the FEAR site:
Fear causes hesitation, and hesitation will cause your worst fears to come true. -Bodhi

A peculiar kind of fear they call courage. -Charles Rann Kennedy

Fearless #5:Kiss

just wanted to quote certain portions of the book that i liked:

-I remember this old neighbour of mine telling me how great it was to be an only child, how you got so much more support, love, attention, blah, blah, blah, blah. How you didn't have to share your clothes or fight over the bathroom. (...) The neighbour I mentioned earlier, the one who was so psyched about only children? I think he neglected to consider how the whole scenario would look if you didn't have parents.

-She turned to the entrance and saw another cluster of people packing themselves in. Her eyes froze. Oh, wow. There. That guy was beautiful, Gaia thought distantly. Tall, perfectlt built. He had gorgeous red-brown-blond hair, neither wavy nor curly but somewhere in between. Just like Sam, her mind informed her dreamily.

Holy shit. Gaia sat up very straight. He wasn't like Sam. He was Sam. Her mind raced.

-"And thanks a lot for looking after me at that bar."

"No prob," Mary said to the sky. "I always take care of my friends."

Gaia thought for a moments. "Why is that so?"

"Because I can afford to."

Gaia squinted at her. "What do you mean?"

"I get a lot of love. From my folks, my brothers. I have extra."

In the pale morning light, that seemed to Gaia both a totally unexpected and beautiful thing to say.

-(Sam) But I can say this. I never understood loneliness until I woke up in my bed without her this morning.

before sunrise | before sunset

i read an article on Paris in i-weekly recently that mentioned a movie called "Before Sunrise" filmed in 1995. i've never heard of it before, so i went online and read up on it. i found a script of the movie:
http://www.geocities.com/joeyhuang2001/b4sunrise01.html

anyway, it was a beautiful love story. hopelessly romantic, especially if you believe in love at first sight, in destiny, and that there is a Right One somewhere out there.

i mean, can you imagine, meeting someone on a train in a foreign country, spending the night just talking and then having just a wonderful time together? although they spent only a night together, it was quality time. we may spent years with people but how much of it is spent understanding each other?

Jesse and Celine met each other nine years later (and the second film "Before Sunset" was released NINE years later, in 2004!!!) and though both of them had partners they weren't happy. Not the right person, i suppose. so in the end although there wasn't a very clear ending i think they got together in the end. yeah. i love happy endings. =)


Thursday, January 11, 2007

The First

I'm really nervous to be making my first entry ever in my first blog. I don't know what to write. Will anyone actually read what I'm writing?haha...