whoa i haven't written in a loooong time. I've been feeling lazy. I'm not even writing in my journal.
I received my first letter from US this week. From Xiaowei =) so exciting...

Near death experience

No kidding, it could only be described as near death. My heart nearly failed.

Because of my fear of beetles I'd closed the windows and left only a little gap for ventilation. But no, that's not a big problem to insects because they just love my room too much to be stopped. I was surfing the net (shouldn't be...it's exam week!!!, but anyway..) when I heard the characteristic flapping of wings...

I tried to kid myself into believing that my ears were playing tricks on me, when I heard it again. I tried to ignore and focus very hard on the screen. Finally, I couldn't stand it anymore and withdrew from my seat to get a better look (cos I knew whatever was making the sound was near the window, and I'm not stupid enough to stand so near it).

真的是晴天霹雳啊！！！Never in my wildest dreams did I expect to see what I saw. It wasn't a beetle, it wasn't a cockroach (hmm maybe that would be worse), it was a GRASSHOPPER. Oh man, my room is not a forest, or a field, or anything grassy, for that matter. I don't know how it got in (must be through the window, but it was just a little gap, how did it notice??). It was perched on the blinds, super green and stick-thin.

I nearly fainted. I rushed out of my room and called Mom. As expected, she asked me not to be afraid and get it to fly out. I couldn't do what she said, but I know she's right. I'm on my own. Much as she wanted to help me, she couldn't. She couldn't possibly rush down here to get rid of a bug, the journey will take more than 1 hour. Argh.

So I went to seek the help of Jing Ting. Really paiseh to keep bothering her, but I'm really despo. She's afraid too, but still tried her best. Felt very bad cos she was helping me, but when the insect flew or made any sudden movements I shrieked and alarmed her. :P My screams caught the attention of my neighbour staying in 301. She's scared too. She offered Baygon. Sigh..don't really want to use insecticide cos how am I supposed to sleep later with the insecticide and all the windows and door closed?

Eventually after much hustle and worrying the stupid insect finally flew out. What a pest. It won't go anywhere far; it's just outside my room. So scary.

Mom keeps asking me to move back, since I'm so afraid of insects. Sigh. That's a major drawback of staying in KEVII, I guess. It'so insect-infested. And lately the mynahs are cawing non-stop in the day. This morning I was awaken by their noise at half past seven. Really wished to throw stones at them.

小小

小小 （好美的词啊。。。）

作词：方文山 作曲：周杰伦 编曲：林迈可

＃回忆像个说书的人 用充满乡音的口吻

跳过水坑 绕过小村 等相遇的缘分

你用泥巴捏一座城 说将来要娶我进门

转多少身 过几次门 虚掷青春＃

小小的誓言还不稳 小小的泪水还在撑

稚嫩的唇 在说离分

＊我的心里从此住了一个人

曾经模样小小的我们

那年你搬小小的板凳

为戏入迷我也一路跟

我在找那个故事里的人

你是不能缺少的部份

你在树下小小的打盹

小小的我傻傻等＊

重复 ＃

小小的感动雨纷纷 小小的别扭惹人疼

小小的人还不会吻

重复 ＊

我的心里从此住了一个人 曾经模样小小的我们

当初学人说爱念剧本 缺牙的你发音却不准

我在找那个故事里的人 你是不能缺少的部份

小小的手牵小小的人 守著小小的永恒

《小小》

《黑色翅膀》

a very nice song by 何润东

Argh. What a day.

连续飞进来2只讨人厌的 stupid beetle. Damn it. Can u believe it? So scary.and it's really metallic looking.

My laptop's hard disk was damaged. *sobs* Replaced it (luckily was covered by warranty) and ALL MY STUFF IS GONE!!! FOREVER!!! *heart shattered* cry...

Sigh..

牧笛 by 刘德华

在一座遥远的草原上  有个善良少年郎 

他每天勤奋的牧牛羊   

孤单是他最佳伙伴  

有一天老青牛带他到镜湖畔   

仙女们三五沐浴梳妆  

莫名的勇气他拾起一件衣裳   

刹那间地摇天晃  

红鸾星它为你下凡   

喔!你这一生我唯一的期待    

七夕雨也为我飘来  

我注定是一辈子缠绵纠缠   

天长也哭不尽   

我对你思念惆怅  

我也只能夜夜的望着   

那每一次鹊桥两岸 



触犯了天条的真心该怎么办   

原来良缘要别人审判  

那一份我和你无尽的真情爱   

银河系也分不开  

红鸾星它为你下凡  

喔!你这一生我唯一的期待    

七夕雨也为我飘来  

我注定是一辈子缠绵纠缠   

天长也哭不尽   

我对你思念惆怅  

我也只能夜夜的望着 

那每一次鹊桥两岸  



每当我忍不住不停的思念你   

倾听我吹的牧笛  

遗忘吧 玉皇大帝　王母娘娘的心

也许会为我哭泣 

喔!滴沥沥!滴沥沥! 滴沥! 

你这一生我唯一的期待    

滴沥沥!滴沥沥! 滴沥! 

我注定是一辈子缠绵纠缠  

滴沥沥!滴沥沥! 滴沥! 

我注定是一辈子缠绵纠缠   

天长也哭不尽   

我对你思念惆怅  

我也只能夜夜的望着   

那每一次鹊桥两岸  

那每一次鹊桥两岸

the lyrics are so beautiful...

风吹云^_^

I'm so proud of myself!!!

Despite my immense fear..

I'd managed to catch and throw away THREE beetles so far.

*Applause*

Nearly had a heart attack just now. Those damn beetles managed to get into my room even though I close the door and window at the risk of suffocating myself. Freakin a**h***.

Oops.

Anyway yesterday was an easy one cos it was quite stationary. Boosted by yesterday's success, I attempted to catch the beetle just now but when I removed the toilet paper I realised it's still on the floor. Oh no I'd alerted it!!!

Indeed, it began to fly about crazily. And in this tiny little room of mine, there's very little space, so my heart threatened to jump out every time it came close to hitting me. Argh..

Finally it came to rest beneath the table and I took a really deep breath, gave myself a mini prep talk (motivation!!) and covered the damn idiot with the paper. I gave it a hard little grinding and got it in a ball of paper. Yeah!!! Walked to the dustbin and threw it in, slamming the lid back asap.

The bin is a scary place too cos the lamp there is faulty, so it's dark and you can't see what insects lurk there...

Wah, staying in hall is great training for my guts. haha

Recently I discovered the path from KE VII to LT32.. It takes the same 10 minutes, but at least don't have to go downhill then up again.. Plus the scenery's great!

Slope outside DBS

Up the red staircase..

I had CM1111 lab yesterday. As always I couldn't finish and was late for lecture. Arghhh.. Dunno what reagent left a question mark on my finger.. haha

Nice right? =D

Saw a chameleon just now..

Going to NUS High Observatory later.. Hope I can get back in time for Ghost Whisperer.. =)

《靠近》

Gary is a wonderful singer!!! Perfect rendition of the song...

Bad Day

Felt very blue today. Attended maths lecture alone because alice overslept. The lecture was boring and the people around me were irritating me non-stop with their incessant chattering. And I was very tired. Dunno why..I'll feel tired even after sleeping for 7 hours.

And then it was physics lecture. I've been lagging behind since the mid-term tests, cos I had PC test before the mid-term break. So I couldn't understand these few lectures and it's all just going to snowball.

Long queue at cblc. Keep printing wrong stuff and waste paper.

Must be the rainy weather.

Oh ya today I saw the rainbow again. I think I'll be able to see one everyday at 8am at DBS. =)

《破茧而出》 大结局

Yesterday was the last episode of 《破茧而出》。very sad..希存died and 婉柔 too. It's sad that she turned out this way. 欧阳 and her could have been very happy together. It's all because of the Ke Mingde. 当欧阳“我认识的婉柔去了哪里？”(after he found out that she was the one who murdered his mother and framed him), you can see that something changed in her. 眼神不一样了。There's like this realisation, like she could finally see when previously she had been blinded by her hatred. Her love for Ouyang had been shrouded and cast aside by her hatred and anger. 为了报仇，她忘了自己是深爱着欧阳的，她故意去伤害他。

She asked,“你说过，无论我用车还是用脚，你都会追我。现在，你还会追我吗？”He nodded. I suppose it was really too much guilt for her to live with and she shot herself in the head. I cried like mad and today eye swollen. :(

This song (斗神）is not as nice as the midi version. The soundtrack's great! All the sad sad music...

Picture of the sky taken after dinner

Picture taken last evening

CM1101 expt. Spectrometry is quite fun. haha. We prepared solutions of different concentrations. The colours very nice hor..

Using the spectrometer to measure absorbance.

Saw a rainbow on my way to school!!! Very excited!!! Caused by refraction of light by a pane of glass near LT32.. =D

Hibiscus flower. I didn't kill it. I picked it off the ground.

beetle

Damn the stupid beetles.

I'm super scared of them. Yet they love my room.

I've been sleeping early because their appearance.

Mom threw one away this afternoon. She said it's simple. She doesn't understand my fear.

And when I'm all alone in my room, she can't help me.

Just now I screamed into the phone as the damn beetle flew about (I sealed all the windows, it must have flown in via the doorway), she persuaded me to catch it. I tried, but I really can't overcome my fear. I was so nervous that I kept sweating. Argh..

Alas I took my whole towel out (even that took a lot of courage!) and hanged it outside.

While I was talking to Mom, I could feel my tears welling up, so I hurriedly ended the call.

So silly of me to cry because of a bug.

19 years old le! Time to grow up!

Which High School Musical Star Are You?

Which High School Musical Star Are You?

My Result: Gabriella Montez

We'd all be so jealous of you — if we didn't like you so much, that is! So if you were cast in High School Musical, we're pretty sure you'd land the part of Gabriella (or at least her BFF). On the outside you seem smart, kind, and sometimes a little shy, but we know that you've got a feisty side too! It might seem uncommon to have such great traits, but somehow you manage it.


Don't believe us? Maybe you don't believe in yourself as much as you should. But don't worry — as long as you work hard and dream big there's no limit to what you can achieve. You're a star!

Take this test >

本性难移

哈哈，爱买笔的我始终无法抗拒诱惑。我今天在LT27外的bazaar买了一盒colour pen。

MA1421 test approaching...

argh got test later and i'm on yahoo answers.. cmi..

What shapes your personality?

My personality breakdown:


















Not very social huh? Not very compassionate also. No wonder my sis's always saying I'm mean. :P

You are probably very interested in what others think about you, and you will go out of your way to impress people. Regardless of whether you're playing a game, entering a competition, or simply being noticed by colleagues, neighbors, or peers, you like to be perceived as a winner. You measure your accomplishments against those of others in the world.

from web.tickle.com

shuffle mode on in wmp.

now playing "one in a million".

out of so many other songs.

meaning?

sigh.

stressed

argh shouldn't have been so slack during the mid-term break. really dunno how i spent it. no work done.

now i have so many things to read i dun even know where to start.

shit.

arrggghhhhh.....

2B outing to orchard

29 September.

Will I ever forget this day?

Didn't really want to go since I had loads of work undone, but I went anyway since I'd already promised to go.

And although now I'm seriously lagging behind in my work, I don't regret going.

What a big huge gigantic titantic shock I got.

Never in a million years did I expect F to do that. I was surprised and shocked and then filled with dread when she passed me her phone.

How scary can things get?

I'm sure she meant it to be a pleasant surprise, but I'm too shy to handle this sort of stuff.

No more this kind of surprises, please. My heart is too weak to handle shock of this magnitude. :P

Dunno why I reacted the way I did. I don't like him anymore, do I?

Anyway, F, if you're reading this, thanks again! =)

P.S. Don't think I can finish reading HP7 this week. Can't even finish that stupid lab report. Argh anomalous results...

Mid-autumn Festival

Yawnz..

So tired.

I just got back from pasir ris costa sand chalet. Was there because of astro. Didn't really want to go, cos I don't like BBQ, so I'd probably starve. Not to mention it's SUPER far.

I've never been there (why is it so hard to believe that I've never been to chalet, to downtown east, to escape??? All you need is to miss classoutings..:P), so I arranged to meet jy at pasir ris. Unfortunately (and predictably), I was late, but luckily he was also late. Haha, in fact we were aboard the same train.

The place was pretty empty when I first got there. Got there and started regretting going. No members, just the current and former comm members. Sigh, bo bian, who ask me itchy hand go and run for comm..

They knew each other and I don't. I'm quite uncomfortable around strangers, and I was stuck there with 4 people whom I barely know, since unfortunately xt went out to buy stuff and xn hadn't arrived.

We played Giza, you know, the pyramid-building game that's pretty dumb if you ask me cos I build sth then you'll bomb it so in the end what's the point?!?! (anyway I was always the lowest score player in all the rounds I'd played) and another game that I'd also played before at minds cafe. the one where you placed shapes that can only touch corners..Argh so hard..

It was quite agonising, trying to hang out with people who I don't really know (like I've only seen them once before) and trying very hard not to appear anti-social and failing miserably. Sigh. But when xt got back it was quite okay, I suppose. At least I have someone to talk to.

Watched CSI but was distracted to go watch the moon (zy brought his telescope). The moon's really beautiful. Then jy wanted to make a rocket using his sparklers. He failed because the "rocket" toppled upon its launch. haha

Then we played with lanterns and sparklers. XT and I took a walk around the park holding lanterns (heez so fun!). We wanted to go down to the beach but the grass was quite wet, so eww...forget it.

Then we played astro monopoly. So cool, right? Instead of building houses and hotels, you build space sheds and observatories! And you can buy Venus, or Orion nebula, or Andromeda galaxy! It was fun, but I was really tired. When I landed on xt's dunno wad property with 3 sheds and I needed to pay $800 plus and I didn't have enough cash, I didn't bother to mortgage my property. I just declared her as the winner. Lol. So tired.

Slept at 3, woke up at 6 because XT and I wanted to watch sunrise. It was really maddening that the side gate wasn't open, so we had to make a huge detour to the main gate. (She wanted to climb the gate, but NO WAY am I climbing it, not after my previous painful experience..sigh don't mention it anymore) Oh yah, I saw Venus!! We didn't get to see the Sun. The sky just sort of brightened up without any sight of the sun. ZY said it's like that, Singapore's sky is always so cloudy that the sun is blocked. Sigh. So disappointing...

Argh haven't started revision or doing any homework!! Reading HP7.. Quite determined to finish it by this week. Very bad eh..started reading in Aug then cast it aside when school started. A lot of pple and creature (*Sobs*) died..

PC1322 test results!!!

Results are out!

Wah they publish EVERYONE's results in the workbin. But only matric nos. are listed, no names.

The test was MCQ, open book.

Heez I got A+! =) =) =)

YEAH!!! haha

Waiting for ghost whisperer...

Loads of outdated pictures...

Haven't written in a long long time.. Mid-term break is here. Nothing to rejoice, cos it's *gasp* mid-term tests after this. My PC1322 test is already over. The lecturer announced during today's lecture that all of us passed. Ought I to be happy? Well, I didn't expect myself to fail. Anyway the average score is 72%, which is pretty high, I guess. So it'll be hard to top.

Anyway I've decided to upload the tons of pictures I'd taken using my phone.. Heez I always take randomly.. Some pics are on facebook so don't think I'll repeat them here.

19th birthday!!!



Cake box













































































Pretty chocolate patterns=)








Happy birthday to me...






























































































































the a2 bus has this fake cockroach pasted. yuck.




















Argh I hate uploading pictures using blogger. So not user-friendly.

再别康桥

老人与海

by 海明威

a very nice song=)

《流光飞舞》

半冷半暖的秋静静烫贴身边　　默默看着流光飞舞　　
晚风中几片红叶惹得身心酥软绵绵　　　　
半醉半醒之间认认笑眼千千　　就让我像云端飘雪　　
以冰清轻轻吻面带出一波一波缠绵　　　　

留人间几回爱迎浮生千重变　　
与有情人做快乐事未问是劫是缘　　　　
似柳也似春风伴着你过春天　　
就]让你埋首烟波里　　
放出心底狂热抱一身春雨绵绵



this is a very nice song from the movie 《青蛇》。i kept thinking it was from 《天龙八部之天山童姥》... Both are very nice movies! =)

Beneath the starry skies

YS and I went to visit YW's hall. It was really last minute, he called me at like 5.30 and I rushed my dinner like mad.

And traffic lights are always red whenever you're in a rush. Damn.

YW's room is indeed as homey as he'd described. Mats and a stool and a small coffee table and mini fridge. Nice. =)

He wanted to let us try the famous waffle, but unfortunately it was already closed by the time we got there.

We went to the School of something design, that glassy place with a huge patch of grass at the top. What a nice place! I could see a lot of sky, a lot of clouds, some stars and a very bright moon.

It was breezy and cool. So we talked under the starry and cloudy sky. It was really nice. So tranquil.

Centaurus

I think the group of stars that I always see from my room window is actually from the Centaurus constellation and not Pegasus like I'd been suspecting.

I have such affinity with Centaur=)
Centaur was my house in RV.

At the airport

Sigh. I've never sent people off, didn't know what to expect.

Didn't sleep, was really tired. By the time we got to the airport, XW was checking in.

I didn't say anything to her. I should have, really, instead of crying in front of so many people. But I couldn't help it. It's like, this sudden urge to cry. I wasn't even thinking of sad songs or the times we'd had together.

And then she's gone. I wish her all the best. She's so brave.

Don't ever want to go through this again.

Graphmatica operator

end of first week

Weekend's finally here...

Made it through first week of school.

The system is really different, not at all like JC. Lectures are short and packed with info that just doesn't go in. I think after 9months I've totally lost my listen-to-lessons abilities.

So stressed, so many problems to take care of. CCA, textbook (which to buy, new or second hand..??), printing notes, lecture, ballot tutorial..

Argh.

Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young
And we both know they'll take us
Where we want to go

(Chorus 1)
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

(Chorus 2)
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

(Chorus 3) Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too

National Day!!!

Wow it's national day tmr. Hmmz..stuck here in hall, with no tv and no decorations and no flag and no blasting of ndp songs..there's no atmosphere at all. Sigh what do u expect, there're so many foreign students here, can't possibly ask them to celebrate Singapore's nat day.

Orientation's over. Yesterday was FLAG day. Phew, what a super tiring day. All of us were supposed to fill two tins each, which is seriuosly impossible for me. I mean, looking at my past records.. But I really did push myself (motivated by Michelle) and managed to complete one tin! *Cheers*

This Sat is RAG..haven't been helping out, but I'm looking forward to watching it. Need tickets eh..dunno how. Dunno if I'm going with Sci Fac or going with hall.

And as if all these are not messy enough, there's an outing this Sat. To celebrate yw's birthday and xw's farewell. Sigh. What to do. Why choose this Sat? None of them are (or is?) from NUS so they aren't going for RAG. Sigh, see how it goes.

Feeling very sleelpy now but must gaodim my bidding. Arghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

school starting soon..

Sigh. Butterflies fluttering in my stomach and palms turning cold and sweaty at the thought of school. I'm so used to not going to school, yet I'd rather go back to sec sch or jc rather than uni. The mere thought of the cors system gives me a headache. Hopefully by the time I reach second year I'd have completely mastered the use of the system.

It's so confusing. There are different requirements to fulfil, I dunno how to fulfil them. There are many different modules, the bidding system, then there's this timetable which shows that round 0 has already commenced yesterday. What if I missed something? I mean, what if I just stay at home everyday and then I won't know what is happening, I don't know that bidding has started and I didn't bid for anything... What will I study then? It's all so weird and confusing. Why don't they just give us a bloody timetable? Argh!

Plus I'm moving into hall this week The thought if leaving my home sweet home and living alone and having to be independent (the worst part is waking up. I wonder how I'm going to get to my lessons if I wake up at 2pm everyday. Alarm clocks simply fail.) fills me with trepidation. I'm so scared.

救命啊。。。

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

Warning: there may be spoiler details below!!!

I know the new book is out.

I haven't bought it yet.

I read from the papers that Harry will win and Voldermort will die and one of Harry's teachers will also die.

Not so hard to guess that it's Snape.

I know that I shouldn't go look up the Deathly Hallows on Wikipedia cos there'll surely be spoilers. I shouldn't spoil the pleasure and experience of finding out for myself when I read the book.

But I just couldn't stand it.

I intended to take a peek, but I ended up reading the entire page and now I more or less know the entire story.

I cried reading the plot. Can you imagine, it's just the plot, it's not even the real book.

This book is so so very different from all the others before it. And so many people died.

[spoiler spoiler don't read on if you don't want to repeat my mistake!!!}]

Hedwig died. Moody died. I'd always found him to be tough and thought he was invincible. Fred died. Lupin and Tonks died, just after they'd finally embraced each other's love. And most upsetting (to me) of all, Dobby died.

Poor Dobby! He was ever so adorable and funny and loyal to Harry. He died saving them. Killed by the evil foul woman Bellatrix. Harry dug a grave for Dobby in the garden of Bill's house and marked 'Here Lies Dobby, a Free Elf'. Poor Dobby, freed by Harry once more!

I suppose because this is the last book of the series J.K.Rowling had to give an ending, but it's weird reading about Harry and gang grow up and get married (damn funny) and have kids (funny choice of names).

Can't wait to read the book.

Dream FMz

Whoa really excited when they went on 'Music in the air'..their singing rocks!!

Took these pictures when I was turning on the TV then so qiao3 it was the same episode of Smallville that I'd watched last year!!! It's about this girl who could control glass. She looks really like Emma Watson but I couldn't find anything about her on the internet...















Sky.





the clouds form a cross..cool right?



this was taken on Sentosa. Looking at the port and cranes remind me of the PSA tour I'd gone on when I was in P5.





Puffy clouds!!







Dusk at Just..



transferring pics from my phone to comp..