Dilemma

Analytical test down today. TM test on Friday.

Felt really sian while studying for the test... The prof's face keeps coming into my head and I just want to punch him. Bleh. There are 5 chapters, and the last 2 totally lost me. BUT fortunately CE on chip and lithography didn't come out in the test! Yeah! (but does that mean they'll be tested in the finals? I guess so...) I thought the test wasn't too bad... at least I don't think I'll fail.

My project group mate sat next to me during the test. Before the test he said, "Let me refer to your paper later hor", and I just smiled, cos it's not the first time I've heard this sort of comment. But I didn't expect him to actually whisper to me during the test. I don't know what he was trying to ask, because I didn't answer him. I pretended I didn't hear him. That's probably not a nice thing to do, but how could I risk talking to him with two invigilators around? Goodness...

Let's just hope he doesn't bear a grudge against  me, because we're not done with our project yet.

What a busy week. Even after all the action is over, there's still tons of data to analyse.

I think I'm very stressed. Even though I don't always consciously feel it, it's always simmering beneath the surface. And something happens and triggers the switch, my floodgates open.

Like just now. When I asked my sis when I can use the desktop since the monitor is bigger and keyboard has the number pad so will be easier for me to key in my data, she said she'll be playing 'left for dead' all day. So I returned to my room and switched on my laptop. As I was waiting for the com to load, I was staring at my organiser where I wrote the stuff I need to do to obtain an elution profile, and then something just snapped. I started crying, and I was thinking, why am I even crying?

Sigh, wasted my eleven hours of sleep. Now my eyes are going to be swollen.

I think I need to redo the elution profile... Sigh.

[@1.40pm: To anyone who might be concerned, I'm fine now. Don't worry ;P]

今天我遇到坏人了

Wish I was joking. Ha ha.

What a sucky day.

Today is The Day. The day on which I had planned to finish evaporating my sample, running it through the column and doing external calibration. I had prepared my stuff for so long, and had come to school EVERY SINGLE FREAKIN day of the recess week. I'd planned to finish everything today so I don't freakin have to go to school again.

Of course things don't go so smoothly for me.

I'd secured the booking of all the instruments I need. BUT phD student S needs to use the balance today. Even though she had booked it on Tue and Thur. So after some negotiation (like I have any choice) I agreed to let her use it in the afternoon while I'm running the column. She'd messaged me thanks, and I'd replied no problem, though in my mind I was thinking, you gave me so many problems.

The main thing is, I had booked the flame and graphite AAS in the afternoon and evening slots. Yah, I was even prepared to stay till night. BUT S started using the graphite in the afternoon, and when I asked her about it, she said her run would only end at 8pm, and suggested that I run my samples tomorrow. I gave her the okay face, but inside I was thinking WHAT THE FUCK! (Yes, I swear a lot inside) Freakin asshole, do you not understand what it means to book something? It means that person needs it. What's the point of having a booking system when you don't stick to it? I was seriously damn pissed.

So I need to go back to school tomorrow. Yah. And I'd already prepared my standards, and I need to leave them and my sample overnight, which seriously affects the accuracy of my results. If I need to redo the whole damn thing again because of that stupid bitch... it's just disgusting.

And squeezing onto crowded trains and buses did not help improve my sucky mood.

日有所思，夜有所梦

The mind is an amazing thing.

This morning, I dreamt that I had a Chinese test but I'd completely forgotten about it. I didn't study at all. Which I think is because I kept playing Westward IV during the long weekend and didn't complete what I was planning to clear during that short break. Anyway, in my dream, I went to the toilet before the start of the test, and when I returned to the classroom slightly late, guess who's inside (other than the students, of course)?

Mr Lim, my primary school Chinese teacher, and, ahem, my supervisor. Looking stern.

Holy shit.

I was reeling from shock when I woke up. How on earth did he enter my dream?

Scary.

And I usually take the lift at S15 when I go to the lab, but today I alighted at the stop opposite university hall and took the lift at S12.

And guess who I saw again?

Bingo.

Had lunch with Priyanka today. Finally... Haven't seen her in like two years? Watching her eat Indian food reminded me of how we used to have dinner together at KE VII...

It was my free day today (Thursday), but of course I still went to school. Although I'd booked the instruments and stuff my mentor didn't want me to do YET another run (I've done nothing but graphite furnace AAS since school started!). He's hoping that the results would be good enough for the professor. And I sure hope they are, cos I also don't know what went wrong. The prof once asked if I did blank correction (at that time I 'd given him a blank look), yet today LJ did without blank correction for external calibration eventually. I'm confused...

Really tired...

Trying to listen to my instrumental analysis webcast, since it'll only be up for one week (dunno what the prof is thinking...).

It's such a torture listening to him mumble into the microphone. And breathing a lot of air into it. And it's so darn soft!

I can't believe I've only covered 11 minutes.

66 more minutes to go.

By the way I'm back to perfecting my external calibration and standard addition AGAIN. For the FOURTH time. Sigh...