Monday, April 30, 2007

Photo

Realise my blog doesn't have any real photos. As in, they're all taken from the internet. So since I have the cam memory card with me now let me add some pictures. :)


My photo frame. David Beckham as Prince Charming..Heezz..



This is a view from my sister's room. Can see the MRT train moving towards Yew Tee. Think it just rained, so everything looked so refreshed!



My mug!! A quote from "The Mediator", when Suze was learning to let Jesse go. Another chance to live.



Last day at work for Sharon. Sobz.



A photo taken at the multimedia room window. That white spot looks like a UFO. doesn't it?
Haha..no lah. It's just the reflection of the spotlight. :)

Thursday, April 26, 2007

《我怀念的》

我问为什么
那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么
不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我
还是明白
你已不想挽回什么

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛

我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔

我怀念的
我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口

我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得

太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说

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Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Tulip







We are told that in Persia the tulip, whose blossom in its native country is
scarlet, while the centre of its glowing cup is black, is used to express warm
affection; and, when sent by a lover, will convey to the object of his
attachment the idea that like this flower, his face is warm and his heart is
consumed as a coal.~ Anne Pratt, The Field, the Garden and the Woodland, 1838

According to Persian legend, the first tulips sprang up from the drops of blood shed by a lover and for a long time the tulip was the symbol of avowed love.

interview tomorrow

I have the NUS scholarship interview tomorrow. Very worried. I mean, the moe experience was very demoralising, you know. And i end work at 9pm today, so won't have much time to prepare, Plus my comp is SUPER slow. Sigh. Need to read up more about the college and faculty. And prepare for possible questions. Really really hope I can get this scholarship. Really need it.

Sigh, why can't I be more charismatic and confident and think faster? Argghhhhh.

Feeling very tired today. Like no more battery le. :(

This is my last chance, since I only applied for 2 scholarships. I should have applied for more.

It's now or never. Ganbete!

Saturday, April 21, 2007

I went for the NTU chem interview today. It's weird. I got the call on wed, asking me to go for the interview today. So i got pretty worried, you know, that I may not get into ntu. Then on Friday I received a letter from ntu accepting me into the department of chem and biochem.

The place was hard to find. I was led there by a kind-hearted student.

I won't say it's an interview. Me and the rest just went into Prof Loh(he's the head)'s office and listen to him talk. Then there was a Q&A session, and of course, I had no qtns. :P

He's really persuasive. After listening to him speak, I had this impulse to join NTU. He sounded so convincing. But I should think it over.

After that i went to Jurong Point. Saw Kym Ng recording for the variety show where they dressed people up as TV characters. Got phua chu kang, rosie, and (haha)liang ximei. Missed that green shirt, black skirt, funny hairdo with two golden clips at the side.

And yah, I bought a Philips MP3 player at Harvey Norman. $80.

The salesman was very nice, helped me set up and everything. Not too bad-looking also. Heez.

Friday, April 20, 2007

You Are 70% Feminist

You are certainly a feminist - whether you know it or not.
You believe in gender equality, at least most of the time. You also believe there are a few exceptions.

pesadilla

I had a nightmare this morning.

I dreamt that I was back in Keming, and I had this big fight with my mom. (I'd quarrelled with her on wed.) So as always I ding3zui3 so nothing abnormal right? But this time round she got really mad and started on how she never wants to see me again. Then she walked away. In my dream I was sitting in the hall and facing the majority of the people. I was sobbing. Then I went to the toilet(haha I could clearly see the school in my dream. It was the toilet near the AVA room) and cried my heart out.

Then I woke up. Crying.

So scary. I had felt so desperate in my dream.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

找一个长周末,去爬山,去看海,去接近花花草草。

有一千零一个留下来的借口,也有一千零一个出走的理由。

只要拿得起行囊。

《雨啊,请你到非洲》

“非洲真的是一块上帝暂时遗忘的土地吗?”

战乱不仅让非洲环境毁灭,人性也被摧毁殆尽。饥荒、疾病、贫穷与天灾在非洲辽阔的土地疯狂肆虐。远离我们世界的另一端,究竟发生什么事,实情多少人可知道?

稚龄孩童,被叛军掳走成童兵。小手握着的不是笔杆,是枪杆。学的不是ABC,是如何开枪。止痛剂是鸦片。游戏是杀人。不懂事的小孩,被教导成最冷血的杀人机器。

非洲女孩,18岁,已是两个孩子的妈。亲人在眼前被残杀,自己被轮暴。因长得美丽,逃过厄运,被仇人收作妾。是否是生不如死。

人命如蚂蚁,随意被践踏。人命只是死亡统计表上的数据。

有些现实,是连电影也拍不出的一出惨剧。

Adapted from i-weekly

bad news

Sigh. Got a letter from MOE. I'm rejected by the teaching scholarship thing. *cry*

So i was in a bad mood this few days. Everything irritated me, including my hair. So i got a haircut yesterday. It's very short now. Actually I wanted it like Gigi Leung's, but the auntie snipped it too short.

Monday, April 16, 2007

My Scandinavian Name! =)

Your Scandinavian Name is:

Erika Ursula

How weird am I?

You Are 70% Weird

You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right?
But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks!

What season am I?

You Belong in Spring

Optimistic, lively, and almost always happy with the world...
You can truly appreciate the blooming nature of spring.
Whether you're planting flowers or dyeing Easter eggs, spring is definitely your season!

What does my Birth month mean?

Your Birth Month is September

Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years.
You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian.

Your soul reflects: Devotion, light, and love

Your gemstone: Sapphire

Your flower: Morning Glory

Your colors: Brown and deep blue

Are You Right or Left Brained?

You Are 75% Left Brained, 25% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Sunday, April 15, 2007

What color purple am I?

Dark Purple

To others, you seem a bit dark, mysterious, and moody.
In truth, you are just a very unique person who doesn't care what others think.
And you really enjoy your offbeat interests and friends.
You've decided that life is about living for yourself - simple as that.
You Will Die at Age 67

You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...
And how you'll die as well.

My German Name

Your German Name is:

Alexa Manuela

What kind of soul am I?

You Are an Old Soul

You are an experienced soul who appreciates tradition.
Mellow and wise, you like to be with others but also to be alone.
Down to earth, you are sensible and impatient.
A creature of habit, it takes you a while to warm up to new people.

You hate injustice, and you're very protective of family and friends
A bit demanding, you expect proper behavior from others.
Extremely independent you don't mind living or being alone.
But when you find love, you tend to want marriage right away.

Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul and Visionary Soul

da Vinci the Genius

Today is Leonardo da Vinci's birthday. He was born 555 years ago.

Thursday, April 12, 2007

I went for the first round of MOE interview yesterday. Scary.

After watching "Planet Earth" (a very nice documentary!!!), I went to practise my pathetique. Slow progress. Still stuck at the same part. I really admire people who can play piano, you know. If I have a child I will send him/her for piano lessons. :)

Anyway, because I was playing the piano I forgot to watch EPL highlights! sadz...

Monday, April 9, 2007

Artificial Intelligence











Dr. Know: Come away O human child / To the waters and the wild / With a fairy hand in hand / For the world's more full of weeping / Than you can understand.

David: My mommy doesn't hate me! Because I'm special! And unique! Because there's never been anyone like me before, ever! Mommy loves Martin because he is real, and when I am real Mommy's going to read to me and tuck me in my bed and sing to me and listen to what I say and she will cuddle with me and tell me every day a hundred times a day that she loves me!



Gigolo Joe: She loves what you do for her, as my customers love what it is I do for them. But she does not love you David, she cannot love you. You are neither flesh, nor blood. You are not a dog, a cat, or a canary. You were designed and built specific, like the rest of us. And you are alone now only because they tired of you, or replaced you with a younger model, or were displeased with something you said, or broke. They made us too smart, too quick, and too many. We are suffering for the mistakes they made because when the end comes, all that will be left is us. That's why they hate us, and that is why you must stay here, with me.

Watched A.I last night.

It was really really sad. Sad in a heartbreaking way.

Why did humans create robots, give them the ability to love, and then desert them?

Monica initiated David because she missed her son Martin who suffered from a terminal illness and was waiting for a cure. David loved her. Yet when Martin returned, she was more devoted to him. I mean, a robot could never replace your own child right?
Humans are cruel. David grabbed Martin when he was threatened by some nasty kid, asking him for protection but both of them ended up sinking into a pool. They wrenched Martin from David’s grip, and David just lay there at the bottom of the pool, staring straight ahead, forgotten.
Finally, Monica decided to return David to the manufacturer, where he would be destroyed, because the initiation process was irreversible. She couldn’t bear to, so she stopped halfway and left him in a wild jungle. So heartless of her. In my opinion it would have been better for him to be destroyed. He’s so young and innocent. How could he survive in the world? Alone? It’s so complicated out there.
David did not hate Monica for abandoning him. Instead, he wanted so badly to be loved by her. So he embarked on a journey to find the Blue Fairy, the magical being who turned Pinocchio into a real boy. He found her statue at the bottom of the sunken Manhattan. Thinking that it was the real Blue fairy, he prayed and pleaded that he could be turned into a real living boy. He prayed continuously.
2000 years passed. The new generation of Mechas found David, frozen under layers of ice. The statue shattered on his touch.
The Mechas regenerated Monica using a strand of her hair. However, she could only live for a day and would never return again. David and Monica spent a happy day together, with no Henry or Martin to disturb them. They baked a birthday cake for him.
Alas, at the end of the day, Monica told David that she loved him and lay down to sleep, never to awake again. David shed tears of joy and slept beside her, for the first time in his life. Teddy joined them in their eternal slumber.
His wish was so simple. All he wanted was to be loved by his mother. He got a day of joy after much danger and peril and after 2000 years.

Saturday, April 7, 2007

Birthday...

7th April.
One week after SPEED Disband Anniversary.
Hiroko and Hitoe’s birthday.
This year, it happens to be Jolin’s concert too.

I want to watch A.I. tmr, but there’s 4D class outing. How?

Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Classic Mood

我是迷恋Classic Mood的。身在其中有股说不出的稳当安全感。很容易就相信世上真有原封不动的承诺。也许,如今人过的日子真是如此地不可预测,将来有总是那么模糊,唯有站在一种已然定型的感觉里,才稍稍能够肯定眼前所见所触一切,或许能逗留得久一点。

但一个mood又要多久才能成为classic?

每个时代都在创发也同时冲刷着每个时代的设计。就只有最能平衡心情的会留下来。因为再大的激情都需要一个可以信任的框架,当我们手里抓不住的天真叛逆终于流失,我们还能对着四平八稳的、俨然坚持的、工整而又对称的设计来安抚情绪。

越喜欢古老经典,也许就越看出现代人心里潜伏的无助倾斜。

是心存感激的,对所有古老经典我都如是。

Adapted from 《i-周刊》, by吴韦才

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

About me

They say Virgos are perfectionists. They say Virgos are critical.

That makes me a typical Virgo.

I am critical. Too critical, in fact, to the extent of being fussy. I like to criticise people, but I don't give constructive comments. I just get irritated easily.

As for being a perfectionist, I'm not sure. Sometimes I try to agar agar cos I'm a slacker, you see; other times I get so caught up in tiny details. Like when I copy notes and write stuff down I'll ensure that I use the same format, same colour, everything has to be done in the same way..in other words, perfect.

And the sad thing is, I'm just not good enough to be perfect.

P.S. The fearless books are due on 2nd April. It took me a long time to copy down extracts. I'm not sure if I'd ever read what I've copied, but I just feel this immense need to have a like record of them. Just like how I'd search for quotes of movies and sometimes(when I'm free) write movie summaries. What's wrong with me???

P.P.S. I watched "My Left Eye Sees Ghost" on Sunday. As expected, I cried a lot. Earlier on I'd just turned on the tap after reading about Will's death. So today very tired and eyes very swollen.

P.P.P.S. Bao bao msged me to say she read that entry on the time machine. Heez, bb if you're reading this pls leave a comment. ;)